Three Poems 
for David Paradine 


Liminal 

The moon is nearly full again.
It appears out of nowhere
as you do, my friend
a ghost casting light
on my clouds
suddenly.

Like the moon,
you are almost 
the wholeness of yourself.
My brother,
how you shine.



From Tangiers to Manhattan

though neither of us live
in either place
we sit in the kitchen
sharing bourbon
intertwined like roots



From Idomeni to Hartford

after the bitter medicine
the kill is nearly full again
it appears hour of nowhere
as do you, my friend,
a ghost casting light
on my clouded
suddenly

There are three doors
and I stand in the threshold
liminal
You hold my hand 
I walk through

and wake to a jungle of birds
and a boy collecting stones
to remember where he's been

looking out the window that day you knew it would end
and this is the last time I'll dig up your body
because I don't have anymore questions to ask of your bones

the drain is clogged again
and the toothpaste floats in floral
patterns on the surface of the muddy water

I could create an entire language of the half
words I never finished saying to you
I could build a house out of all the years you took

and this is the last time I'll look back over my
shoulder to see your breath hanging like a ghost
from the tree we never carved our initials into

I cut you out slowly, strand by strand, as I shaved
my hair to the root. I thought it was rebellion,
but it was an old mourning ritual I learned before I was born

and it worked. As the hair inched down, my body
healed and my mind returned from its wandering 
and when I looked in the mirror I saw that 

days had ended and begun again
that the moon had risen in its fullness 
that tomorrow morning will always come, 

even when the night felt like a heavy door that a thousand 
other men could never open. I was wrong. 
The door was a veil and when the wind
blew again, the veil lifted and I was born to myself.

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she said with a half smile 
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We read Plato's Allegory of the Cave and Malcolm X's Literacy Behind Bars to get a better understanding 
of a prison and its impacts on both inmates 
for the safety and well-being of the children 
detail-oriented, fussy, picky
up, a mountain loses its hugeness and becomes  
there should be a middle eastern teacher
"why is that so, do you think?" "because we're not white" 
Your job is to tell 
Can you imagine the blood in my vein
but it's their fault they didn't go
My allegory of the cave
you can not face me 

they wanted to know if Etheridge Knight really went to jail and i said 
that's something we have to look up because my history is built 
by textbooks and curiosity but you can't be curious about a name you've 
never heard, in spite of majoring in English, studying poetry, and writing 
it for the last ten years and i am embarrassed by my whiteness and my 
ignorance and it is not too painful to tell them, because they know anyway, 
and they are kind about it. 

and so, yes, children, he did. Just like Malcolm and just like Martin
and just like i don't in spite of all the opportunities, because right 
now it's more important to get to you by 7:30 and anyway, who 
would post bail? 

i try not to cry, as much, anymore, because i haven't earned the tears
of other people's lives. i have only earned my own and God, and anyone 
around me, knows i've shed enough of those in the last four years 
to take my breaths in a jagged way that shakes my whole body and 
alarms the students and they say miss, did you forget to breathe again?

and what a question when yes maybe i did or maybe i held my
breath too long in order to feel the air press against my lungs when i was biting 
my lip and trying not to cry but i walk around free in a world where 
it is easier for me to breathe than it is for others 

when i saw her face it was on the beach in the summer and i was wearing 
a striped bikini and feeling good in my skin and then i saw her, smiling, 
not her mugshot, and by the time i saw her, she was dead and i didn't know 
what to do but shake and shudder and burn with anger under the sun
until my skin turned the color of the inside of my eyelids that did not burn
with tears because this was beyond that

i am still trying to find a language to speak but what is better is to listen and
i would like to believe i am ready for the revolution but the only reason i'm 
closer to being ready is because i know i am not and that i need a thousand 
more years of sitting at the feet of others to learn how to live as an interruption
to the heavy forked tongue that tells our history.

A student says in class:

there are two meanings to the word husband
the verb: to carefully use or manage

That night a student says to me in a dream:

I don't mind the dirt and I like the twists
but, I swear, this winding dirt road better
lead somewhere eventually

and we watch the camera pan out
and the road keeps going
through valleys and trees and fields
and there are mountains further off

we know
every road leads
somewhere eventually.

But sometimes I forget that
and it seems like all the streetlights
have turned to trees
and I am lost and there is snow in my beard
or in his and I mistake myself in dreams for a
man I used to know
and I am trying on men I don't know
and wearing their bruises
and it seems to make sense since I am 
32 and that is an age to begin to think about what
might be around the bend
and besides my ovaries hurt

but

i am further from home with men
who believe that I am lying
when I say I would rather be a very ancient
wall on which people write their secrets
than a mother or a thing that is easily
managed or used

what home but the road is there for a woman
who will not be had?

The moon's eyelid is half shut

the cross my father made me

dangles from the only nail left in the 

plaster, all the others having pulled 

from the wall and then pulled the wall with them.

I am not my father's daughter: there are many bent nails,
broken hammers, and dead plants in my possession.

I imagine if I were Basho I would look
to the mist over a mountain or the dew on a blossom
and know transcendence but I live in a city
and I am alone with the grain of the wood floor 

and the chill from the thin windows.

What they don't tell you when you lose someone 

is that it happens more than once.

I have lost my father every day for two years,

The plaster on the wall is waiting to crumble
and I am waiting to be fully returned to myself,
but still, there is the swollen eye of the moon,
the whittled night, the orange street lights
that dangle like fruit.

I am a thousand years old and Basho is my
mailman. 

10/26/15

I have been living from my stomach lately
in the center of that trembling
that comes from coffee or the days before
unutterable change

I am getting smaller
so that I can climb further
in, so that I can touch those places
that still burn

the cilia tangle, blushing at my nearness